I'm a Malaysian

1988

I arrived into this world, destined to be a Malaysian

Rather lucky, I was not exposed to taste the bitterness of fighting to stay alive thanks to my parents
So to me, Malaysia is indeed a good place to live in, all along

Like many others, I aced the Moral exams every single time during my 6 years of primary education. As the exams tested our consciences and tested our ability to differentiate right from wrong. And quite frankly I must say, all of us during that age, already possessed simple conscience and ability to differentiate right from wrong, with little struggle.

As for myself, I took in whatever our moral teacher taught us as soon as I think the moral values made sense and do no harm to others. I'm fortunate to have to ability to decipher, and to really practise my values and beliefs without obvious hindrance by others.

And till this very day, I think this subject "Moral" in school have made an impact in my life and is here to stay, and I practise the moral values as best as I can everyday.

To love your country, to respect the elders, look for your happiness by helping others, to not differentiate people by skin colour and ethnicity, to be proud being a Malaysian as three major races can live happily under the roof...and the list goes on and on and on...

And yes, I am and will always be proud as a Malaysian

As I grew older, topics about politics and happenings appeared in the newspaper never failed to widen the gap between my love towards Malaysia and my government.

I guess this statement resonates in a lot of you, "I love my country Malaysia, but I wished for a better government to help my motherland reaches her full potential"

How I wished, for several times in my life, to have the ability to make Malaysia better, in a big big way. Limited by my pathetic knowledge in politics and current happenings, I chose not to play a fool of myself. So I kept quiet, and continue to love my country, in my own sweet world...

Racial remarks and issues, whether you like it or not, will not die anytime soon. Prejudice based on previous encounters and skin colour differentiation is way too common, it made me sad and disappointed whenever I hear such remarks. To be fair, as a Chinese Malaysian, I hear more hurtful and disgusting comments towards other races than my own. And yes, it is totally discouraging and awful, to hear such remarks arrowed towards specific people of other races that most of the time have not done anything wrong but to bear the burden of other Malaysian, who might not be well liked, by many other Malaysians, after all.

And now, after graduation, I chose not to stay in Australia but to come back, only nearer but not back to my home country to work, in Singapore. The entire thought process that led up to this decision is complicated and personal, and I admit at the beginning, I see it as a decision that has no love to Malaysia. Instead of contributing to the healthcare system in Malaysia, I planted my foot in Singapore and gave my very best over here and will continue to give as long as I'm here. Only to realise the existence of a bigger love, love for people, just like moral taught me. But eventually, someday in the future, I hope to be able to contribute in a bigger scale for Malaysia, to help achieve its full potential with the abundant resources. Quite frankly, healthcare system in Singapore is no lack of talents from Malaysia, and many of them are "big shots" in many healthcare institutions and work just as hard as any other Singaporean here. And reality never failed to strike me so hard whenever I detected a slight Malaysian accent from them, that is when my imagination ran wild, thinking that how Malaysia would be better with all the talents back at home. But why, they are not back at home, often left me speechless...

To cut it short, as I realised I have spilled lots of words into this long lost blog of mine. I was deeply touched by the tremendous amount of support and love that people gave to Malaysia. And regardless of the results, we, Malaysian who hoped for a better future has won it altogether, as we will carry on with the spirit and live it in our daily life, just like how moral has taught us in school.