Dream-like

Dream
Something that you wake up from
Something that can seem to be true
But actually not
It can be beautiful
It can be otherwise

Dream-like
Something that is happening
Just that this time
It's entirely true

Joy, Happiness, Worries
They can all happen together

Of course, being myself
Joy and Happiness are the majority
Being older, wiser and practical (I hope)
I had my fair share of worries too (But diminishing)

This dream-like situation
Is knowing and being with Hui Han
The girl that I've never even dreamt of being close with

Our encounter goes way back to 3-4 years before
While I dreaded going to CCK as a full fledge pharmacist
It turned out to be a pretty good stop at that point of my life
Colleagues are nice and kind
Almost the best workplace in my opinion
If it's entirely rated based on co-workers only (haha!)
And then, the girl aced her interview and become a PT
Ms Liew liked her, she thought everyone would too
And turned out, Hui Han is truly a likeable girl
And I had the chance to precept her
No special feelings back then
She paid attention, took notes, improved
And I certainly enjoyed the process to witness her growth

Fast forward to 21st July 2016
A random thought while having dinner in one of my favourite Jap Restaurant
Why not go look for my dear colleagues in CCK?
Who shall be the one I contact?
A few names popped into my head
But this special one is the one I chosen in the end
A simple Hi!
A simple reply, started this dream-like interaction
And I smiled before, during and after my sleep ever since

Never thought would meet someone that thinks so alike
And guesses each others answers correctly
The feeling of finally meeting someone that knows you
Joy, amplified

My 28th birthday was awesome
A lot of effort was put in by Hui Han
And I've never been so pampered for such a long time
Lunch @ Saveur, Gold Class "Train to Busan", Singapore Flyers, Dinner @ Kanshoku, Cedele Choc Cake, 7+1 gifts
A fine day planned out, someone was still worried that the birthday day might not be pleased

Mankind are fearful of the unknown
Few brave ones chose to charge ahead
Some failed miserably
Some succeeded, momentarily
Some contented
However, ALL do not look back
All had a story to tell

I chose to charge forward again with her
Believing this time is better

Fix what is broken, not throw
Be kind, generous and resourceful
Give and not expecting to be paid back
Love, get hurt and love again
Live, do good and be content
Be trustworthy, keep your words and sleep well at night

天真的在看

最近突发奇想，反正生活也慢了下来

就想要可以做些什么帮助＋回馈恩约对我的照顾和教育

做回老本行，就来个药物管理教育及提供吧

这个念头在心里想了也有一段时间了，就是没有实际行动

就也不过是一通电话，就是没有打过去

今天，就打给Ruth院长，问问他们是不是需要这一方面的帮助

出乎预料的，她也同时有这样的想法，想要找我帮助

而且是这几天的事情

除了帮助整理药物之外，我也想付出每一个月RM500的贡献

我一直以为很多事情是一厢情愿

可是老天爷的完美计划，总是让我出乎预料

这不止made my day

还大大增强了我对神的信任，他总是在我左右，没有离弃

不管发生什么事，我都知道他一定知道

一切的付出，肯定不会白费

虽然最近蛮伤心，不过我并不孤单

谢谢Jesus

Blogger is still alive!

Long long time since the last post, time has passed and things have changed.

Don't know what prompted me to look back at this deserted blog and tons of memories came rushing back in my mind...

Beyond Pharmacy Sdn Bhd is now a reality, no longer a dream anymore. It is the outcome that I have worked so much for as seen in the previous blog posts. Only to realise, this is not the end of the journey, things have just started and there's more work to be done. I dream big dreams, reality hits me so hard sometimes, that I have to admit that I lose motivation along the way. Thank God, I'm not alone in this journey.

Coming back home has never been a smooth transition for me, I was an adult, I felt like a kid now. Closer physically with parents now, but emotionally far. I know I should be grateful, but I felt that freedom is not a privilege now anymore. Things adding up together, is growing up suppose to suck? Or the Man above is really showing me my limits, I'm not broken down yet, does it mean I'm meant for more? I don't know, but I continue to receive encouragements and motivations that I am so grateful for. So, I shall be convinced. Friends are really really important too.

One scary thing that still continue to daunt me from time to time: I constantly thought that I am still 26 years old whenever I am asked by online survey forms. 28, it doesn't justify the place that I'm at now, at least I feel this way. Things that people said and I used to brushed aside in the past are now chasing and trying to bite my tail. I'm the one telling people to cherish student life, I'm the one telling people to enjoy employment, so the wisdom is passed on like that from generations to generations.

Of course, life is not about sulking and sulking away! The satisfaction of treating and witnessing the recovery of a patient is so amazing that it brings voluntary smile on my face and heart. As of now, Beyond Pharmacy is still losing money every month, but I was told to have faith as things will start to get better in time. Know a few great partners in crime, in this hole together, Boon Fong, Kevin and Heng. 3 young pharmacists, trying to do ethical business in this hostile environment. We kept telling each other to make sure we have enough rest, fearing that one of us might collapse soon. The relationships make this journey less lonely, at least for me. And I hope I can be of good help for them too when the time comes.

I felt like I have said enough of work, but that's my life at this point of life! Keeping things afloat and learning every single day. All sorts of people, all sorts of behaviours, society teaches alot.

How strong is my heart? Very strong. What's inside my mind? I guess I know when I read back this post. Time will heal. People will heal. God will heal.