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Long long time since the last post, time has passed and things have changed.
Don't know what prompted me to look back at this deserted blog and tons of memories came rushing back in my mind...
Beyond Pharmacy Sdn Bhd is now a reality, no longer a dream anymore. It is the outcome that I have worked so much for as seen in the previous blog posts. Only to realise, this is not the end of the journey, things have just started and there's more work to be done. I dream big dreams, reality hits me so hard sometimes, that I have to admit that I lose motivation along the way. Thank God, I'm not alone in this journey.
Coming back home has never been a smooth transition for me, I was an adult, I felt like a kid now. Closer physically with parents now, but emotionally far. I know I should be grateful, but I felt that freedom is not a privilege now anymore. Things adding up together, is growing up suppose to suck? Or the Man above is really showing me my limits, I'm not broken down yet, does it mean I'm meant for more? I don't know, but I continue to receive encouragements and motivations that I am so grateful for. So, I shall be convinced. Friends are really really important too.
One scary thing that still continue to daunt me from time to time: I constantly thought that I am still 26 years old whenever I am asked by online survey forms. 28, it doesn't justify the place that I'm at now, at least I feel this way. Things that people said and I used to brushed aside in the past are now chasing and trying to bite my tail. I'm the one telling people to cherish student life, I'm the one telling people to enjoy employment, so the wisdom is passed on like that from generations to generations.
Of course, life is not about sulking and sulking away! The satisfaction of treating and witnessing the recovery of a patient is so amazing that it brings voluntary smile on my face and heart. As of now, Beyond Pharmacy is still losing money every month, but I was told to have faith as things will start to get better in time. Know a few great partners in crime, in this hole together, Boon Fong, Kevin and Heng. 3 young pharmacists, trying to do ethical business in this hostile environment. We kept telling each other to make sure we have enough rest, fearing that one of us might collapse soon. The relationships make this journey less lonely, at least for me. And I hope I can be of good help for them too when the time comes.
I felt like I have said enough of work, but that's my life at this point of life! Keeping things afloat and learning every single day. All sorts of people, all sorts of behaviours, society teaches alot.
How strong is my heart? Very strong. What's inside my mind? I guess I know when I read back this post. Time will heal. People will heal. God will heal.
